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Name: Sammi
Birthday: 1/7/1991
Gender: Female


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Member Since: 2/10/2005

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Saturday, October 27, 2007

My Wish

My hero called me crying today
I didn't know what to say
A single tear fell down my cheek
Instantly I felt powerless and weak
I had no words to tell him at all
Then my knees buckled and I was no longer tall
Three words spewed from my heart
"I love You" and I was no longer falling apart
"I Love You?" is what he said
Stopping his crying panic in my head
He asked if he could come over and talk
We sat on a bench as twilight hit
"I Love You" he said it and he meant it
Looking deep into my herows eyes
So colorful and mesmorized
I was his and he was mine
At that moment everything was fine
Five years down the road hand in hand
Left hand ring finger is a wedding band


Sunday, September 09, 2007

I hate me now...

By Sam Schaffer
I feel empty, friendships vary,
To me a lot in this world is scary
Now I pretty much live in fear
If I scream no one will hear
Everything I held proudly to myself was taken
I'm waiting for my life to suddenly awaken
My pride, joy, happiness, love and my life goal..
have been taken away along with my soul
I wish no one can make me cringe or cry...
Why am I alive? Why didn't I die?
What is my purpose now? If I can't feel?
I don't even know what is real
I'm empty, lost, disgusted and broken
The only feeling I get is with this cigarette I'm smokin
I want to feel and have good thoughts
Now my mind just sits here and rots
No one can help me I am alone
I am cold down to the bone
Everything's been taken away
And nobody has anything to say
Except for they hate me and want me to die
Then I say "So do I"
I can't tell what's going on now
Nothnig feels real I don't know how
I'm lost, I wish I couldn't feel anymore
Well not like I do like a dirty fuckin whore
I don't know what to do
Apparently nothing I say is true
Hated, empty, cold yet I'm alive
But there is nothing for me to strive
I guess I'm a big disgrace
So I'll find a way to hide my face


Thursday, July 05, 2007

Used

I'm a stupid girl that was caught up in your game
A stupid little girl with no life, it's a shame
I was just another stupid toy
That you broke and tried to destroy
I got out of your game twice
But now I couldn't manage to do it thrice
You strung me along, using me then threw me away
I didn't know what to think or say
You said you loved me and couldn't live without me
But that was all apart of your game and I was blind and couldn't see
Broken but I'm still standing here
I will not disappear
Your game was bullshit,  I thought you were more
Now I think of you as just another man whore
You are just like the other ones I had
I thought you could NEVER be that bad
But I was wrong, you lied, cheated and tried to destroy
I will NEVER again be your toy
I can't look at your deceitful face
Without feeling rage and disgrace
NEVER again will I get lost in your eyes
NEVER again will I get caught up in your lies
Your love is fake, like your heart and soul
I am no longer apart of your loop hole
I decided to give you one last chance and make it alright
Because I loved you and I lost sight
I admit you had me, and my heart
Then you threw it to the groung breaking it apart
You won ok, You got your way
You won and not I must pay
Because of you I'm broken and blind
And now I'm left far behind
Broken but no longer confused
Because I found out I was just being used
Never again will I play your game
Because I will never be the same
I have nothing to give anymore
You won so stop keeping score


Thursday, December 28, 2006

YOU

My stomach aches when I think of you
I don't know what to do
Every time I see your face
I want to cry in disgrace
I hate how I wish and pray
Breaking up day by day
I want to hate you and get over this
I don't want you to be the one I miss
I hate these feelings with all my heart
But I try not to fall apart
I wish this mever happened I wish we never met
Cuz then I would have never had my heart set
I try to tell myself I don't want you
But I leave myself broken in tears because I do...
I am lost, confused and all alone
I hate these games and talking to you on the phone
I don't want to lose you but you're already gone
This can no longer go on
I wish and hope that one day you will see
That all you ever needed was me
But it'll never happen anyway
Just because you said "maybe one day"
But relationships don't ever pend
So I guess this is the end 
Let me sit in this rotting hell
Good bye, so long, fairwell


Friday, August 18, 2006

Do Something... Change this place

Watch me as I light up the sky
Don't tell me how much time has gone by
Look at this place can't you see?
Why don't you get up and help me
Change a life make a difference somewhere
Because wether you like it or someone does care!
Quit pitying yourself help someone who's hurt
Help this person up who's been left in the dirt
Open your eyes look at you
Find something you know you can do!
Just look around and maybe try
Don't give up now I won't let you die
Quit relying on others to make you happy and bright
Don't give up anything without a fight
No one can take your soul away
You have nothing to lose today
Make someone else's life shine
Don't pity anyone because it will be fine
Mistakes are golden, life's too short
So change something in this "horrible" place
It's as simple as putting a smile on someone's face



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